been a plaeasent day so far not long to wait things will be so good,jim will have a great day things will work out for him im positive and things will work out well for me im positive,it is nice so far cloudy light rain cooled down ,ive been learning manchester cooking on� a manchester channel channel m.interesting,its a show called cooking imppossible,� quite a challenge but very very interesting the show is done by tameside markets,and it is fun to watch,it will be a terrific day!� im learning alot of new stuff and just enjoying myself,looking forward to the future,
����������������� As the night comes again, I fall into a world of passionate desires. So much anxiety for being alone this evening, I long for comfort zone. My body aches for pleasant touch. �I write love songs and poems in my journal. It keeps me off the dirty scenes. I wait for something real.
���������������� �It feels nothing wrong to have her lying next to me. To feel her kiss all night. Perhaps an adventure under the stars or beside a fire, or with the sound of the ocean. It is wonderful, a life to have. Share something just between the two. No talks, no nothing with our friends, a secret kept with joy well spent. Without no disrespect a nature takes its place. Tonight I sleep after all.
July 9, 2008
Last week we traveled to Kentucky Speedway for the weekend.� It was a long weekend, Thursday – Sunday.� Friday afternoon we had rain at the Speedway so our sessions were canceled.� We actually left the track about 4pm which is unheard of on a normal day.� Some of the gang went out for dinner at a great Italian restaurant and then went to Cincinnati which is about � hour from the track.� They have a beautiful river walk area downtown – it’s about 4 miles long.� It was nice to get out and see some of the area we were in.� I think of all the places we have gone Kentucky is my favorite.� It is a beautiful drive thru the mountains.� Some day I am going to make that drive, on my own time, and stop at all the wineries in the area.� And believe me, there are a lot.� I swear I saw a sign about every 20 minutes.��
load up the weapons army fatigues made for the desert, mission accepted.. freelance with no direction shoot till im deaf without sound then whats progressing stoup to the depths when all the hits are infective, but never a faker got shit that will earthquake ya fake noisemaker after 3 bullets you spit a tracer i stay with a scope...couple bombs made out of soap knife to the throat pull the gauge the range is close you thought when you spoke, not thinking properly shows you already lost if 1 man can kill your squad think of hi squad and all the damage they'll cause insanity cause you facing us all i feel alive when death is in my eyes 10000 bullets fly by without the time and i know that im getting mine but ima ride with fire in my eyes.
So i may still have a shot at this promotion! today my Supervisor informed on the latest on the open position! But we have to wait and see how all turns out. Lately I have been having Current issues of confusion. Well, about a several months back I was in deep depression for not having my other half around. My Current boyfriend and I had had a lil break for about 3 months. I finally won his heart back in January of this year. Things now are going smooth and like they say things must get worse to get better! and thats just what they were, there were issues after issues and now finally they are smoothed out. Here's where my confusion comes in and eats me alive. One of my Ex's from a long time ago has recently got in touch with me. I can honestly say This guy really loved me with all his heart, body and soul! I broke his heart and told me to leave me alone for the fact that my current came into my life. So now He has limited time here becasue he recently just got into some trouble and he will be heading to the big house soon (prison). My problem is LOVE! I really loved my ex once upon a time and him gettin in contact with� me has made me miss all the times we had. I was the one to break my ex's heart and after all that i put him through he still loves me with all his heart!!! Im sooooooo damn confused Because i loved him the same way he loved me but His lifestyle is what made me to look for better! over all he was the best lover I ever had! He loved me and i knew he loved me with all his might! and i messed it up but having the urge to find someone with a better head on his shoulders. My ex told me that he was doing well for himself, he was going to school, and concentrating on just him. That he was influenced in some kind of drug deal and it was a drug deal that went bad! I still love him but i know i will be more stable with the guy im currently with, the only bad part about my boyfriend now is that i have a bit of trust issues with him and my ex i didn't! ugggghhh im soo damn confused its killing me and i cry every now and again because im not sure what i should do. . . . . .So confused
Frack.� The tickets to the Mercury game today are for 12:30 in the afternoon!� I can't go to that!� WTF?
--� BTI meeting was short, IWS Testing cancelled, PFF has nothing on calendar, and PAM/LDAP is going to be held late.
- I setup a script to auto-start SCS on documentum when it reboots.� I didn't even test it, but I sent an email to Tequila & Chops to drop it on all of the WICK boxes.� I copied Mr. T. and Carrot Cake because Mr. T. asked me about it yesterday.� This caused a firestorm of emails from Carrot Cake wanting me to fix every issue in the whole environment.� I explained that I only fixed the problem because I had time, there were caution & warnings going out, and nobody else would touch it.� Forwarded her requests to Tequila & Chops.
- Chops has some bell's palsy issue or something and half of his face is paralyzed and he looks like he's had a stroke, but he came into work anyway.� What a fucking loon.� I think anyone would agree with me when I say, "If half of your face is paralyzed, it's okay for you to stay home for the day."
3:00 - LDAP Meeting.
- my guniea pig server Pan is on the same ESX host as the apollo LDAP auth server so any traffic going to apollo from pan won't leave the ESX v-switch since they're on the same vlan.
- hoops wants a copy of pan to play with.� got an IP from Grandpa Simpson and spun out Pandora.� Re-ip'd it and sent login info to Hoops & Skipper.
- Check with TAMMY: Is it okay to use RHEL5 as an NFS primary?� Will I face any problems having RHEL3/4/5 and/or Solaris 7, 8, 9 mounting their /home's from an RHEL5 NFS server?� (firewalls will be involved but will have holes punched.)
- Slick is going to ask Grandpa Simpson to pull the latest rhel5 dvd down and will find a location for it.
- Build RHEL5 Gold
- Spin clone of 5 Gold into Homewood.� Stand up Homewood on Seer with 100GB slice.
- There seems to be some incompatibility between Tivoli, EDirectory, and our version of OpenLDAP.
- Squirrelface wants a RHEL4 or 5 image to play with.� Told him to open a fucking ticket and I'll get to it sometime in August.
�����������������I am standing right next to her. It’s cold. Blizzard and ice all around us. We are standing on a frozen lake. She’s beautiful. Her skin is so white I can hardly see her cheeks. Her lips are the most real feature and soft like air fall. In her eyes I can see the whole galaxy. Her hair is so dark I can see every snowflake. I am holding her tighter and tighter. The warmer she get, her skin turns color. I no longer feel the cold. It’s just us in the middle of no where. Nothing else matters. We are keeping each other alive. Sharing body heat. On and inside each other the whole time. The snow is building up on top of us, and the ice on her skin is melting like body sweat. In the dark on the ice out bodies shiver at the same rhythm. I have her hear beat and she has mine.
The most romantic moment turns to nightmare. She slips from my hands, I fall to the ground. She moves back and I keep slipping. Can’t find grip on this ice. She begins to run, away from me. I am trying to get up, to stop her. As I crawl towards her she only takes one peak at me. She is moving way too fast. Her skin turns whiter every step she takes. It gets cold again. Her body whitens and she freezes into ice. She falls and breaks into a million pieces. I scream “My love”. Cracks beneath me only getting louder. The ice around me breaks. I freeze and drown to the bottom. Pieces of her go down with me. The new ice sheet forms above.�Together we die. I was nothing with out her.
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perfect love is to love she it is who loves mee
well this is it, it's finally ending me being on my own that is.� After 6 years of living alone w/my children i'm going back home to my parents.� what a drag but for some reason im not as bummed about it as i would imagine. why???� no idea but maybe this is what i've needed so i can make that change i've been wanting.� Although i wish it didn't have to be this way but i guess its probably the only way anything would happen.� I got til the end of the month i already started packing some of my stuff. for being here that long i would think i'd have more stuff but i really dont have anything worth saving.� Oh well not like i'll be needing it anytime soon anyways.
Twin came by a while back and joey kept teasing that he was interested but i paid him no mind and never would of thought anything but he came over a little more and we've just been hangin out.� He's cool he switched up a bit but that what they all do so im already knowing.� but he hasnt been by in a few days and the more i wish he would come he doesnt of course.� I just want to hang with someone since this is gonna be like the last time for any of that.� Im gonna really be all alone then.� That's probably gonna suck the most just not having anyone around to talk to like how it is here.� But....
well� i got alot of things to figure out in my life just hope i start putting some actions to what it is i want cause its not just gonna happen on its own.� i need motivation thats it and i have none for anything i do.� i wonder why i dont know im not sad or anything just not into anything at least not the way i use to be.� sometimes i wonder myself i lost me some time ago i just wish i was more in touch w/myself like before.� i am to a certain point but those will never change i need to get back the little important ones im missing.
莫干山小记
�� 一般来说, 人们需要用大约5年的时间, 对一个陌生的城市产生 ‘家’ 的感觉. , 你会不知不觉地停止去各类景点览胜, 开始往城市周边不太知名的休闲地溜达, 开始 ‘玩’.
��� 周六, 我们暂别酷热的上海, 驱车前往久闻大名的休闲圣地莫干山. 期盼用3小时风汤热路换来一个清凉的周末.
�� 莫干山的山间遍布一座座小石屋, 床位都不多, 设备相对简陋, 但盛夏的周末入住率极高, 得了 ‘都市厌倦综合症’ 的人们都是冲着竹林尖上吃早餐和松林边上喝下午茶的情调来的. 用时髦的话叫享受 ‘天然氧吧’.
�� 我们下榻的 ‘别墅’ 有个很好的凉台, 围着 ’怪石’ 走了一圈山路的我们出了一身汗, 冲凉过后, 终于有资格在爽滑的微风中喝着鲜美的山鸡汤, 并细致地体会缕缕阳光射在竹林角的清凉温柔, 尽情地沐浴落日的余晖从松树的缝隙间透出来的热烈激情. 带着这阳光赐予的能量眺望远处, 灰蓝相间的绵延山脉把人的思想和天的意志轻而易举地连了起来. 想一想在自然界里人类自己和眼前跑动的山鸡的地位真还没啥两样. 只不过人因为能把山鸡捉来吃掉而陶醉在自己的所谓能力里很多年头了.
�� 在莫干山逛一天下来, 给我印象最深的不是山间一幢幢小别墅, 而是山上成片竹子脚踏实地, 挺拔向上的性格. 很难想象一个没有竹林的莫干山, 是柔韧翠绿的竹子给莫干山注入了恬静的灵魂.� 莫干莫干, 竹盖青山, 要想赏竹, 首选莫干.
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